Ok, I may be hitting the wall. Right now, as we speak, hitting the damn wall. I’m a little bit bored. No, a lot bored. It’s very difficult to work an aimless office job after working with subsea robotics. And training as a commercial diver. And traveling all over the damn place, and living here and there. I am bored. I need something to happen.
Here’s the biggest stressor: the job. The J.O.B. I need one and yet, it is the most demotivating thing in the whole wide world, to do the job search. I don’t know how to network here. I had gotten good with the networking in the gulf because it was the old boys’ club, and that’s where I’m comfortable, somehow. Maybe just more accustomed to it. Here… I don’t know my head from my ass and I’m completely uncomfortable. So I don’t do anything and nothing changes and I continue to the same J.O.B. that’s not improving anything in my life. Quite the opposite, I think. Argh.
It’s all association though, at the core of it. Change the association, change what I see in the world. Traditionally when I reach this point, the only option seems to be leaving. But I don’t want to go now, but I’m still conditioned to want to leave. See what I mean? Change the association… Where is Tony Robbins in an elevator when you really need him?